i'm afraid of being sued, too [06 Sep 2003|11:06pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | The Early November - Something That Produces Results ] Why do people post things like this? I am still bandless and I am still waiting to start a new one. People are finally starting to realize the fact that LiveonRelease has broken up, it has certainly taken them long enough. They are all, "WELL BIF NAKED'S OFFICIAL FORUM IS UP BUT LOR'S IS NOT THERE. GUESS THEY'RE REALLY BROKEN UP!!!" Yeah, chief, we are. And to answer a follow-up question, I haven't spoken to Brittin in over a month. I tend to keep in regular touch with Foxx and Leah, though Brittin and I have basically gone our separate ways. It's not as if I wasn't expecting it. To her, we ruined her dream. Her perfect band with her as the star. This may be cold and I know that Brittin is not a selfish person whatsoever, but everyone wants to shine at some point, right? It's only natural to want your sister and your father to elevate you onto a pedestal. I didn't even realize it was happening and I don't believe Britt herself did, either. I think she took for granted how much exposure she, herself, was getting. Now that everything's said and done, she's playing guitar for Bif and the three of us are stranted. Foxx has a job, I believe. I don't know where right now, but I'm sure she has one. How the hell else will she pay bills? Same with Leah. But really, I've got nothing. I'm afraid of running out of money. As each day passes, I contemplate the day I have to run to my parents and ask them to please wire me some. I tour with my boyfriend, I'm one of those rockstar girlfriends now. I'm not Colette from LiveonRelease, I'm Colette who is dating Cone McCaslin. The latter isn't depressing at all other than the fact that I'm no longer the former. I can no longer hold my own according to random fans, you know? I'm just a girlfriend. I'm with the band, not in the band. I'm sure none of you are even staying with my train of thought on this. Maybe I'm just crazy, who knows. But yeah, I'm thankful every single day for the opportunities that Cone is giving and his willingness to accommodate unemployed me, even if he does have sex with his bandmates when I am not looking. No, scratch that, I'm totally kidding. He even does it when I am looking. Anyway, moving on, Aaron invited me to a party that's going to take place in his house very soon. I think his band's going and I'm not sure who else, but if Ryan's there then I hope Foxx will be as well. I'm going to fly to D.C. sometime in the near future and see what happens. I'll just have to meet up with Cone a few days later in some airport. I have no idea where they'll be, I will just play it by ear. I need to stop spending money on airplane tickets. At least when I am with Sum 41 I get them for free. Speaking of money, I have to go to an open grocery store and stock up on bottles of Dasani and chex mix. Goodbye. 9 aren't paranoid|i'm twisted and different

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